Lost treasure only

 Is such a word, many people have said, I do not own their own will in the mirror one day and say to myself silly over, losing only treasure!
Hairy do not want to hear give me a chance, I always say the same thing, but doing the same thing to hurt her heart, she loves me, and I was so selfish. her heart away from me, and is the result of my own, I listen to too many good things, but in the most critical time of no more concern, she said some of the words, Mao Mao was right, love packed in my heart is of no use, bring it up, give you love and babies has been so love me, I worried sick when she called me to pay attention to the body, the examination will turn iron into steel is not bad when I say, trouble at home when she stop outlet for me to comfort me.
My role? addition to the time to meet to make her very happy, but when her sick wordy wordy review, to say the words does not itch, hurt. You know, I am very far away from her, now not every days all together, listen to me telling jokes, listening to my long-winded. I know too late, but I hope I can make fur for me even a little bit of hope rises.
I always do, plan, What are the plans, I plan to test at this time we are successful, I plan to next year when I can for her, and I plan our lives in Xi'an, but I ignored the immediate well-being. and is the most critical time of happiness, in my eyes, I could not grasp the future of the program can do? stupid!
dream the night before, I was admitted to the hospital, the doctor said I have mental illness, should I isolate it. Who also see, who does not see the kingdom. It makes me think of it I cried the first dream scene, I was locked up, looked farther and farther away from me hairy, I threw things around, I cry loudly, and finally I woke up. I was so afraid to leave the furry, forced to leave or I was in isolation, but the fact is I did not keep her, hurt her. awoke crying then cry, but I have to fur to recover.
dad today to see hairy, and last night she said today, and Dad said I hurt her heart, she did not want to be with me. It was my death sentence. good, I do not leave you do not want to leave you can not just leave you lost treasure ... I really understand.